Feeling super blah

Date: 3/4/22 – 3/10/22
Training Day: 89 – 95
Miles: All treadmill – 2.9 + 6.7 + 3 + 2.3 (hill repeats) + 1.9
Time: 40 + 90 + 40 + 29 + 34 min
Shoes: Xero HFS
Activity: Strength – Power x2 & yoga x2

How It Felt: The workout on Friday felt good, especially since I was well rested! Saturday’s run wasn’t great, but it wasn’t horrible. My long Sunday run only sucked because it was on the treadmill. I also learned that doing strength training immediately following a long run on the treadmill is a bad idea. My legs were so beat!

My Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday runs felt exhausting because I felt so fatigued and lethargic. Yoga on Monday and Tuesday felt soooo good, and I hope I can manage to get back to doing yoga on a regular basis.

Commentary: Because I’ve been feeling super blah, it’s taken me an entire week to actually finish this blog post. Let’s go back to March 4th and beyond…

Guess who finally got a good night’s sleep?! That’s right! This girl! Thursday night I slept so good, and I woke up feeling refreshed. I was also happy because it seemed the weekend in Vegas was the cause of my bad sleep and not something else like before.

Overall, I’ve been in a shit mood lately. Winter is getting to me. It might even be seasonal affective disorder, who knows. I was so excited about winter because I couldn’t wait to go snowshoeing, but my lungs squashed that. I can’t even enjoy being outside doing nothing without my lungs getting jacked up.

Being inside most of the time is the worst for me. I love spending time outside, and not being able to because of the cold makes me grumpy. I don’t like being stuck in the house. It drives me crazy. All I can think about is going somewhere warm. I would leave every weekend if gas prices weren’t so high and I didn’t have labs to do on Friday.

Work is also getting me down. I don’t dislike my job, and I don’t dread going to work. But I also don’t look forward it, and I don’t get any satisfaction from the job itself. I really enjoy the people I work with, and if it weren’t for them, I’d probably quit right now.

But wait, there’s more! You know in relationships each person kind of has their role? I know what my role is my marriage – I’m the one who stays level-headed (most of the time) and initiates conversations to try to resolve issues. Most of the time, I’m content in my role. But sometimes, like today (Tuesday), I just don’t want to fucking do it. Instead, I want to be angry. I want to be the one who feels all the emotions and doesn’t have to try to fucking hard smooth things over. I know this will pass, but until it does, today just sucks.

I went home on Tuesday with the intention of doing strength training. Instead, I did yoga. Getting my mind and my mood right are just as important as training.

To try to calm myself down on Tuesday, I did a deep breathing exercise on my Garmin for the first time.

On Wednesday my mood was better, but I felt quite lethargic. My run was a shit show. It was supposed to be 50 minutes, but last week when I created it, I only made it 40 minutes. Since I wasn’t feeling all that hot anyway, I felt it was fortuitous. Before the last hill repeat I was trying to change the screen on the treadmill. I accidently hit “Cooldown” and ended my workout. At that point I was so exhausted I didn’t care. More time to get ready for work!

I changed my training for the week in Volt to an unload week. The idea was that an easier training week would be easier to pull off while feeling blah and fatigued. Instead I went home and watched Guardians of the Galaxy because I’ve had the soundtrack stuck in my head the entire week.

Yesterday, Thursday, I still felt super fatigued, and like I might be getting sick. I did a super easy run with run/walk intervals on iFit. When I’m feeling blah but decide to run anyway, I like doing a workout by Tommy Rivs. He has neat little factoids that keep me entertained the whole run, and all of sudden the run is over.

I had a mild headache the entire day. Walking up the stairs left me exhausted with my heart pounding out of my chest. I went back into Volt and changed this week into a week off. There’s no point in pushing myself when my body clearly isn’t in any shape. We had a work get together in the evening, so no strength workout, and I wasn’t about to do strength training three days in a row while feeling like shit.

All in all this hasn’t been the greatest week. But I must say I am super proud of myself. When I’m feeling blah, fatigued and/or unwell, I usually push through my training anyway. Is it bad to do that? Maybe. Maybe not. But when I push through, each workout is miserable. The entire time I question why I’m doing it, and all I want to do is stop. This time, I took it easy and did what I felt I could. I might not be “staying hard” like the Goggins, but I feel like I took care of myself both mentally and physically. Maybe I’m growing up!

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